I’m sitting on the couch in the living room. For two hrs I’ve been sleepless in my bed. Nausea, pain in my stomach, short moments of dreaming away, exhaustion and above all… no sleep! I'm wondering when this all will pass. Will it take twenty weeks, as during my first pregnancy? Or will I be more fortunate this time? In moments like this, I tell myself "I never want to be pregnant again!". And I also know I will forget about this soon. Right now, I’m sick of being sick. This overall feeling of 'bleeeeh'. Right now, if I’m lucky I have two hrs of feeling “normal” a day. I decided to get out of bed. I’m sitting on the couch, eating my apple. Hoping that it will not be too sour and come out again. Hoping my stomach will welcome the food and I will be able to get some rest before Pepijn wakes up.
I would love this to be a space for engagement, exploration and connection. Please practice nonviolence in your comments. If you have a request (for example, because you would like support or collaboration), you can send me an email: message@tamaracatharina.com
