The tiredness and nausea make me want to turn inwards and stay indoors. Sit on the couch with a blanket. Not moving myself, even for food or a cup of tea. My energy is not one that wants to connect. There is something inside that wants attention. This inward movement brings up grief. One that I don’t understand yet. I chose to isolate, and I feel lonely. I trust the loneliness is there to tell me something. Rather than fixing I am staying with it. Waiting for it’s voice to reveal itself. I know it is a necessary proces. Just as the cycles of the moon, pregnancy bring its own cycles. Meant for healing and transformation. I surrender.
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