Pregnancy Notes 〇 Midwife (7wk 5d)

Today I saw my midwife for the first time. The same midwife that guided me through my first pregnancy. I love her. To me, she is the mother of all midwives I know. Her grounded and earthy presence. Whatever happens, she is there, that’s what I trust. My second pregnancy was a strange moment, where due to restrictions I didn’t see a midwife at all. She didn’t know about my loss. Even though I thought I was quite on my way in processing this experience, when I saw her I realised, sharing with her was a necessary step. Before I knew it tears were running over my cheeks. Another part of me was melting. Vincent sitting next to me, being present. Her eyes and ears on me holding space like an ancient tree. Instant healing happened. And without touch, I felt held with my whole being. Deeply grateful.

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